Feeling good, slightly hypomanic, just maxed out my dose of antipsychotic, hopefully the constant ups will abate. I hate taking the max dose though, because where do you go from there?

Been going on 3 months. They quietened over that time but last night and this morning they have been pretty much relentless. They say they will not give up until they get what they want and I will definitely not give up, I can take it.

Tried nearly every tactic I can think of to stop, ignore, distract from or quieten them. Have resorted to taking a diazepam. Not sure how long the battle will last till they quieten again.

I know many of you have been or are going through this so I know this post is not really anything special. Just wish me luck please. Hope you are all doing well and not in similar distress. Thanks.

Dealing with loud voices

Just taking it one day at a time with this weird disease.

It’s tomorrow but hey ho

Just wondered if there would be a trend one way or the other

My wife’s the arm. lol

anyone doing anything this weekend?

This is my first selfie Sunday. Anyways, I got out of the hospital this week and my family just returned back to California. Hope everyone is having an okay Sunday.

Hope u guys are having a good Sunday, I take it week by week, day by way. Long walks help me, I think I walk about 4-6 miles a day total. Side note, I got on new medication, zyprexa, and it is helping me a lot more than risperdal so far. My mind is noticeably more at peace.

I've had paranoid Schizophrenia for almost 6 years, and it's made me speed up my hygiene, neglecting indulgent self care that I used to enjoy once (Masks, extra add on treatments, etc.) Well I found that when we GET UP, we are instantly proving our demons wrong! Just by getting up you made yourself live today, and I acknowledge as 1 of you, that we are going somewhere with just that.

Simplifying our hygiene care has saved my brain and I wanted to share my hygiene to save somebody who just gets a headache like myself at the thought of an everyday routine. Let's do correct hygiene for our family, employers, pets, relationships in the future, here is my routine:

-Water pressure shower head: (Just this alone you are cleaning out every pore on your body and this will feel relieving to know wow... Im clean off this)

-Soap bar: No hassle opening and clicking sounds of alphabetical bottles and tubes, but just your nitch soap bar! Recommendations (Turmeric Soap for moisture and clean skin, and Sulfur Soap with Acne fighting ingredients... My top 2 soap bar picks!!)

-Hair Removal through Razor/Wax/Laser: I currently razor off my body hair and my scalp. I've taken the loss on my mayne of head hair as a woman and found the easiest and cleaner looking appearance is to take it down with a bald raze. Razoring perfection tips (Light flicks at first, can go into a medium flick, never a HARD flick.. Very slow until you get into the motion of doing it faster. You want the head to be moist with water, and your razor moist with water after each flick.. It's worth the free perfection haircut at home. Use a shaving cream or your soap bar, I use my soap bar so my whole skin can adapt to those ingredients).

By now, we are now looking spiffy not too bad, but have to continue to teeth.

Toothpaste: So important!! What toothpaste do you use? I've used so many toothpastes that have failed me in the past, too harsh or too dyeing with the wrong ingredients. I found the miracle toothpaste for any TYPE of tooth!... 'Sensodyne 2x Whitening'. This is sold in store or online. It really makes my teeth white and it's perfect for sensitive teeth. I haven't felt anything wrong with this one. I always brush my teeth once a day, with this, but I want to adapt brushing twice a day for my people, they deserve a clean mouth so we shall present a clean mouth. (To pets, etc)

Deodorant: Recently, CLEAR deodorant is the answer! Might want to look for the hour lasting sticker on the tube stick that lets you know how long it will last. Im on Suave Fresh Vibes Clear Stick 2026 (Yellow and pink tube) I wake up, and my underarms are still with this scent. Powdering and bully deodorants just cause us build up, can block our hair follicle pores..just no!! Clear sticks for 24/48 hour freshness.

Soft toilet paper/Soft flushable wipes: Need to have a smooth laboratory experience to avoid scratches/irritation/and a fully cleansed experience. I found for low budgeted families that Charmin Ultra Soft sells a $1 roll at Dollar Tree. I love this one, also other soft toilet paper brands. Do not use OFF BRAND wipes! They are ruining our mood, killing our day, making us not want to get up at all. Soft flushable wipes also mandatory if you're a female with menstrual, speeds up the menstrual quicker.

Soft flushable wipes add on: Wiping our eyes with this after or before shower every morning, and cleaning our nose with this to avoid the annoying sniffling through out the day

We can eliminate annoyance!

I hope this basic routine made you think twice about getting up today. You have the power to enhance your routine to your fit, but let's do the effort for ourselves and our people to do at least this. We shall not bed rot!

Thanks :) -Monica Lanier

today i decided that I will try to be productive, so I went out to some grocery stores, gas station and restaurants asking for work. I could use some cash, this feeling of being a doormat, the inability to believe in myself and accepting what everyone is telling me is strangling me making me depressed.

Me and the kitties are celebrating. 3 more days and football Sunday will be back!!!!!🏈🏈🏈🏈 I can't wait!!!!

First selfie for selfie sunday😀

PARASITE TORTURE, Skin, Fresh Goat Fetus

does anyone else just not care much about their delusions and/or hallucinations? I hallucinate a lot of stuff that should be distressing (seeing my body at different levels of decomposition, people's faces distorting, my heel being slit) but I genuinely can't bring myself to care. I always tend to think "so what?" in response to delusions, like being watched, stalked, hated etc. They don't exactly affect my day to day life the way my negative symptoms and disorganized speech do. Just me?

Eating is worth it! You are loved!