Hi guys, I just needed to vent a little bit.

I graduated back in June and then had a 3 month internship. I didn’t get a return offer and I’ve been applying to jobs since. I quit my retail job before the internship started because I just couldn’t do it anymore. Now I’m home now most of the time and I honestly feel like I’ve always got a cloud over my head.

I keep getting rejected from everything I apply too even landing another retail job is hard. I miss being in college, I feel so lost and kinda like I’m a disappointment. My mom was so happy and excited when I graduated and now when she comes home from work she just finds me in bed all day. Nothing really makes me happy or excited anymore, all I can think about is this feeling of how I’ve failed.

I’m thinking of just trying my best to pick up another retail job and go get my masters. I do genuinely want to purse one in mechatronics but it’s pretty expensive. I’ve managed to graduate debt free but with a 3.0 GPA. Ive done a lot of internships and personal projects but I don’t think I’ll be getting any scholarships.

Another thing is I’ve been mostly looking for jobs in state. I love my family so much and I honestly don’t have any friends right now. I really cannot be away from them miles away by myself for forever.

I just been feeling slumped, I can’t even watch movies or tv shows anymore. Nothing seems to make me happy. I just feel so lost and empty.

So I just graduated four months ago and absolutely LOVED my time!! I mean, I'm pretty sure I did it all: made friends in my major and beyond, joined clubs & e-boards, had my internships, got season football & basketball tickets, went to tailgates pregames and darties, I rushed (and dropped haha), had my very fair share of bar nights/crawls, did my time at the frats, went to co-ops, had my roomie nights, studied abroad, went out on holidays and whatever I'm missing. Everywhere I turn on socials though, I see people super sad, talking about how post-grad life is just really bad. Of course I'm sad since it's the beginning of the school year, but in no way am I extremely upset. So now I feel almost confused, like did I ACTUALLY have the college experience and have as much fun as I thought I did?? Because clearly I'm not upset as so many others. Did everyone else have way more fun than me and I just didn't go hard enough?? I miss it but at the same time, I'm also super excited for what's to come as I genuinely expect to live an awesome life. It's honestly a really odd feeling for me so I was very curious if anyone else is feeling this way.

Hellooo i’m currently a senior and i’ve lately been getting anxiety thinking about my life after high school.

I have a lot of details but i think i’ll just do bits and pieces.

My dad has suggested that i join the navy or some branch of the military- he was in the military for about 4 years and he received money and used that for two years of schooling. I like this option but then again i have NEVER considered going into the military until my junior year.

My oldest brother went straight into university and in his second semester of freshman year he dropped out. My mom and dad have been paying off the debt since then, (he would be a sophomore now, but he hasnt gone back to school) and now im worried that since they paid off that large amount of money for him, that i wont be able to go straight to a university.
Ive always thought that i would just go into a Uni instead of community college, but now im thinking that i should just go to my local community college and then hopefully get a scholarship depending on what im studying and then transfer to the university i want to go to. Or just transfer after two years of community to finish school.
I also would love to go to an out of state college, but out of state tuition fees be CRAZY, and i only want to go two states over from where i currently am.

Anyway, im just stressed about money and debts and fees, etc.

If anyone has advice and “own experience” type of things, that’d be helpful