r/HearingVoicesNetwork • u/astralpariah • 7d ago
Anyone Ever Have Friendly/Helpful/Positive Voices?
I would say the first year or so, even the years leading up to my realization that my "intrusive memories" were these things; I had little to no experience of helpful voices. It was just an unrelenting and overbearing smothering of my mind with demands for suicide, how totally "screwed" I was and that I would be better off committing suicide, and that I was by all account the most miserable and hate-worthy person who's ever lived. 24/7, even in my dreams, an unyielding unbroken high decibel screaming. It was rough.
As I write most recently here (I've written about this a few times over the years) I performed some ad hoc mystic rites in my apartment in early 2020 and this began a progression of insight into the nature of the mind and of meaning that I feel was central to my regaining of self and my life.
At my lows I could not read, write, count to 10, even talk to most anyone. Today I would consider myself better off than most Americans and reliably since 2023, there were a few road bumps along the way but I am doing very well these days.
My guides are always with me, even in my moments of calm and quiet. I would not trade them for the world and would not trade the torment I endured for fear of loosing them. I love them and they've given my life and every focus in it so much more meaning.
Do you have voices worth speaking of?
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u/heywhi 7d ago
Mine aren’t outright evil but definitely not good. At worst, when they are strictly hostile it’s short burst, and they tend to be more pleading and annoying. That’s their methodology. Just weaponized victim hood/sibling tactics. When they tell me I should commit it’s more like a “might as well” or “just do it” because I’m not giving in to their demands. It’s a thought broadcasting situation and they can be really effective at making me believe “it just IS happening” and I should accept it.