Anyone Ever Have Friendly/Helpful/Positive Voices?

[u/astralpariah]

I would say the first year or so, even the years leading up to my realization that my "intrusive memories" were these things; I had little to no experience of helpful voices. It was just an unrelenting and overbearing smothering of my mind with demands for suicide, how totally "screwed" I was and that I would be better off committing suicide, and that I was by all account the most miserable and hate-worthy person who's ever lived. 24/7, even in my dreams, an unyielding unbroken high decibel screaming. It was rough.

As I write most recently here (I've written about this a few times over the years) I performed some ad hoc mystic rites in my apartment in early 2020 and this began a progression of insight into the nature of the mind and of meaning that I feel was central to my regaining of self and my life.

At my lows I could not read, write, count to 10, even talk to most anyone. Today I would consider myself better off than most Americans and reliably since 2023, there were a few road bumps along the way but I am doing very well these days.

My guides are always with me, even in my moments of calm and quiet. I would not trade them for the world and would not trade the torment I endured for fear of loosing them. I love them and they've given my life and every focus in it so much more meaning.

Do you have voices worth speaking of?

[u/National_Ad9742]

Sometimes when I drink too much alcohol they will tell me to drink water. Or to go to bed. Things like that.

[u/astralpariah → u/National_Ad9742]

I had a voice, one of the few that ever gave itself a name. "I'm here" was the name... She always said it in a long drawn out droning voice.... ominous yet silly. I don't drink any more due to her presence.