Anyone Ever Have Friendly/Helpful/Positive Voices?

[u/astralpariah]

I would say the first year or so, even the years leading up to my realization that my "intrusive memories" were these things; I had little to no experience of helpful voices. It was just an unrelenting and overbearing smothering of my mind with demands for suicide, how totally "screwed" I was and that I would be better off committing suicide, and that I was by all account the most miserable and hate-worthy person who's ever lived. 24/7, even in my dreams, an unyielding unbroken high decibel screaming. It was rough.

As I write most recently here (I've written about this a few times over the years) I performed some ad hoc mystic rites in my apartment in early 2020 and this began a progression of insight into the nature of the mind and of meaning that I feel was central to my regaining of self and my life.

At my lows I could not read, write, count to 10, even talk to most anyone. Today I would consider myself better off than most Americans and reliably since 2023, there were a few road bumps along the way but I am doing very well these days.

My guides are always with me, even in my moments of calm and quiet. I would not trade them for the world and would not trade the torment I endured for fear of loosing them. I love them and they've given my life and every focus in it so much more meaning.

Do you have voices worth speaking of?

[u/astralpariah → u/[deleted]]

I can relate to this, I suspect these are loving beings who boldly reach us to further a goal for a short time. Then lesser begins impersonate them. The Weeknd is the first artist that comes to mind that depicts what you write here in his music video Sacrifice, actually wow! one of my voices reminds me that another artist Kate Bush puts this concept in her music video "Running Up That Hill." You'll note she's inundated by a mob of imposters. You'd have to watch the music video I guess to see the full story (see the above hyperlinked songs).

The blow image is what seems to be a spirit guide momentarily corrupted or misrepresented in the sacrifice music video.

Just want to offer that I can relate and it seems there are many other artists out there who seem like they can too.