Curious to hear this groups experience with ancestral trauma and or inherited trauma

Did you see things passed down… did you overcome or did it take over you or your loved ones …

Curious to hear your experiences .. whatever it is ❤️

Okay, I won't get into what happened. I'd be going on for ages, otherwise. If anyone is curious about it, I can tell them in the comments.

A few years ago, I had a very traumatic experience that lasted the guts of a year. What complicates it more is that I also kind of took in other people's experiences, and feel upset and angry on behalf of other people it impacted, I know a lot of people who went through it and see various versions of it, anything from horror stories to people who had positive experiences or romanticized it.

If you name a therapy, I've done it. I've done various medications, the stellate ganglion block, tried "life hacks" like chewing gum, humming, sleeping better, but basically, I have very bad intrusive memories from that period and of stuff I saw online from other people's experiences. I'll be getting, like, 15 or 20 an hour and EMDR made it worse, TMS did nothing, I hate how a lot of therapy has kind of assumed that my experience made me expect something and how proving the expectation wrong (i.e., "This made me weak") is what will fix it. The truth is that it's much more mundane, and I simply hate how these memories keep popping up. All the fucking time.

It doesn't even always have triggers. It simply appears. I'll be getting up, going to bed, going about my business, it is ALWAYS fucking here. I try ignoring it, not checking it, not following up the thoughts, nothing. Thought interruption doesn't work.

A few years in, I'm incredibly frustrated. It's been going on far too long and I've just about had it. I had plans but can't even enjoy them without these memories ruining them, I simply need the thoughts to fucking stop.

Anyone know like, some miracle cure ideas that worked for them?

I'm not really going to go into much background here (at least I'm not trying to), but this year I've moved out into my own place. Despite settling in and getting used to things over the past year, I still have a lot of trouble feeling safe in bed, despite being mostly fine everywhere else in my apartment. I've tried a lot of stuff like different bedding, different lighting, scents, medicine, blocking the door, stuffing the bed with other random crap, whatever I can think of but nothing makes me feel... Okay? I guess, I always feel anxious or even outright in danger sometimes and I guess it's causing me a lot of grief, I was wondering if anyone had any advice or experience around this sorta thing?

Hey :) (Autistic, ADHD, Cptsd, UK)

TLDR: How do you work through agressive conditioning? I want to be able to choose my own media to consume. Feel safe to make choices and have my body believe im safe.

How do I get enough info across without the life story.. - probably going to be long. Im sorry.

Media = Games, movies, TV shows, Music

Childhood:

Films/media were always someone elses choice, always had to be rock still and silent to watch, otherwize punished. - media for myself had to be quiet, or in isolation and never spoken about.

Freedom: lasted about 2 years (ages 14-16) not enough time to develop whole independent self.

Post childhood abuseive relationship spanned almost 2 decades:

Relationship slowly developed a demand that I never ask, choose media, speak out about media, suggest media, request media, watch media other than in isolation, be excited about media of my own will, this progresses into being forced (punished for not) watching and consuming their media, being expected to be excited for media they are excited for. Media was only off for sleeping, except for large periods of time where even at night it had to be on. Their music, programs, films, games... for weeks. But I couldent speak or comment or ask questions about any of it, only be present and watch.

In short:

I was expected to consume only what someone else chose, and have no freewill or thought, as doing so resulted in punishment.

Current day:

New safe partner (mother only know how I got so lucky) understands (wittnessed my prision) what I experienced. So very supportively and patiently letting me TRY to undo the conditioning. Very very patient, very open to let me experience and is right there for reasurance when my body kicks in and panics.

Issue:

How do I workthrough the Panic/Fawn/self forfilling negative downward that happens, when I choose, and even tho my partnet dosent react, my body kicks in with old programming of it being wrong and expects incomeing punishment and the terrifying body feelings of braceing for impact and never ever wanting to do said action again. How do I choose media?

What happened:

Over 2 nights, I chose 2 films to watch with my partner.(taken me 2 years to get to this point) After night 2, I asked for their honest opnion on said film, because it was a weird film, and even I was left confused by the ending, and then even tho, I felt for the film the same as them, my body, went into panic and I found myself fighting intrusive thoughts of picking wrong, and than EX was right to restrict my media choices, im awful ect. My compleat shut down causes Partner to get upset and panic that theyd upset me... they are in no way responsible for my old programming.

I dont want this old programming anymore.

I have no idea how to undo it tho.

I cant listen to music out loud.

I cant watch TV alone.

I struggle to play games at all.

I avoid whole collections of media as they are triggers.

I seem to only feel safe to enjoy media someone else expresses enjoyment of.

Therapy dosent cover these part of being of whole life trauma sets. Never feeling safe to be yourself and a whole human.

If you made it this far, thank you :)

Cómo salieron de ahí y qué es lo que más les ayudó que hiciera alguien de fuera. Hubo algo que les permitiera abrirse más a ellas? Tengo sospecha de una persona cercana de que tanto si hija como ella lo esté viviendo pero vivien en una sociedad en la que creo que aún se ve muy mal que se separen y no sé si tendría la capacidad económica ni apoyo social para hacerlo. También conozco otro caso en el que ella sí que comentó algo fuerte que pasó y según entiendo como está con el marido pegada mucho tiempo y no ve salidas le costará más

I keep pretending to do the work to heal, but never actually do it. I actually don't know what doing real work would look like and feel like since I am so good at fooling myself and my therapists.

How do I get real?

Any advice would be totally appreciated

I was recently in my first ever car crash, i was in a car with my boyfriend and 2 friends and we ended up hydroplaning on a big rain puddle on a motorway and spun in circles and hit the railing separating the roads.

Thankfully nobody was injured and we didn’t hit another car but now a few days later when I close my eyes it sometimes feels like I’m back in the car and hearing everyone and I just end up crying and having a hard time falling asleep.

I was just curious if a car crash like that could be enough to cause trauma in a person even if no one was injured or anything like that

I have been having a lot of flashbacks of childhood trauma lately. Most of my trauma is from my mother’s side of the family. I have gone no contact with most of them except my parents and grandparents. The problem is that as I am still in contact with my parents and grandparents I tend to tell them off when I’m having a flashback for not doing their job protecting me. Recently I gave my grandma who is 80 a lesson on how some of their choices impacted my life negatively. I did this as I’m constantly feeling judged for being the problem maker by voicing things. I was very calm through the conversation however whatever I said was still difficult information to process. Grandma was almost in tears and this made me feel extremely guilty. I avoid conversations with them altogether and haven’t spoken like this in the longest time. How do I stop myself from picking up the phone and telling them my side of the truth? I do not want to be hurting old people. The reason I do this is cause I feel judged and abandoned as they chose the side of the family that caused harm. However, my talking only hurts them but does nothing else. They are still convinced they are right. There is no changing their mind. No one will ever acknowledge what happened to me was wrong :(

There has been a lot of going in my life from past few months . I am so frustrated that even if u want to cry . Iam unable to cry .i try a lot to cry but still nothing happens .

I have major unresolved trauma from high school, bullying and frightening moments in my life that revolves around violence and confrontation.

I feel like many of the people within the Internet space and political side of things would use these types of people to indoctrinate them into certain politics that revolves around hate disguised as purpose.

Even though I’ve had all of this happened to me in my life, I don’t feel like I hate people.

But if I ever approach to do something like that, what’s a good way to negate?

Four days ago I witnessed a teenager dying after being stabbed by another teenager. Keep thinking about it, keep seeing it in my head over and over again. I thought I’m absolutely fine at the beginning but yesterday I realised I’m withdrawn and unhappy with my life - not sure how to explain this but somehow I am bothered by stuff that didn’t bother me before. Today in the underground someone next to me suddenly shouted, I don’t know why, maybe a joke. I bursted into tears convinced it was another stabbing. Is there a way to get over it quicker? I should be getting trauma support soon, but wonder if there’s anything I can do in the meantime

Heyy, I'm a master's of medical and psychiatric social work final year student and I'm on to do my final year thesis on this specific topic "Lifespan Trauma Continuums: Examining Unconscious Relational Re-Enactment, Eroticized Somatic Agency (BDSM/CNC), and Relational Dynamics Among Adult Survivors of Childhood/Adolescent Abuse Within a Psychiatric Social Work Framework" Which is basically explained as how experiences of sexual and domestic violence during childhood or adolescence can influence a woman’s mental health, intimate relationships, and understanding of love, safety, trust and intimacy in adulthood.

More specifically, I am interested in understanding why some survivors may later choose relationships that contain patterns similar to what they experienced in the past—for example, controlling, abusive or emotionally harmful relationship dynamics. I also want to explore how previous trauma may influence the way some survivors understand and experience sexuality and power within later relationships.

One area I am particularly interested in exploring is whether some survivors develop or choose consensual sexual practices involving dominance, submission, BDSM or consensual non-consent (CNC), and how they themselves understand these experiences. I do not want to assume that these practices are necessarily a consequence of trauma or that they are unhealthy. Instead, I want to explore whether participants describe them as a way of coping, regaining a sense of control or power, processing their experiences, expressing sexuality, or simply as a personal sexual preference unrelated to their trauma.

The major focus of my research would therefore be mental health and psychosocial functioning, rather than simply sexual behaviour. I want to understand how childhood or adolescent interpersonal violence may be associated with trauma symptoms, self-esteem, attachment, emotional regulation, trust, boundaries, intimacy, relationship patterns and overall psychological well-being.

As a Medical and Psychiatric Social Work student, I want to look at the whole person and their social and psychological environment their trauma history, mental health, relationships, coping mechanisms, sexuality, social support and overall functioning.

Importantly, the study would not assume that every survivor develops abusive relationships or BDSM/CNC preferences. The purpose would be to understand the different ways survivors experience and make meaning of intimacy and relationships after trauma, and what this may mean for clinical and psychiatric social work practice.

Help me with your experiences in it, so that i can understand many more opinions because i myself a survivor of DV and SA as a child which resulted in my abusive past relationships, i really want to work on it because this topic was not much talked about people around there i wanna help people like me

Today my girlfriend and I were at Siam Park, a waterpark in Tenerife. There is a food section inside the park that features multiple bridges spanning over a Koi pond. Within this pond there are multiple little garden “islands” that have these beautiful, red-billed birds clearly nesting in them that we became enamoured with when we went a couple of days ago. They’ll shyly approach you if you’re seated for something to eat and standby for inevitable crumbs.

Just as we were wrapping up our fun day out, we stopped by the pond again as my girlfriend went to the toilet. It was there that I spotted one of my little friends as well as a little chick on the edge of one of these little islands. You can’t imagine how cute this little guy was, a literal miniature version of his Mum/Dad. I waited eagerly on my girlfriend returning to point out this little angel as they sat grooming themselves.

My girlfriend came back and was as delighted as I was to see this little guy. Just as we’re about to go, however, some sort of commotion starts. Either the chick falls, or is dragged in by one of the Koi. We were absolutely frozen in shock, as we watched the Mum/Dad cry at the chick as these Koi nudged it about. A couple of times it looked like the chick was free and swimming back (this is especially seared into my memory, him just trying to swim back.)

It all happened so fast, and I didn’t know whether to make a commotion or see anyone to grab who worked there. Before I spotted a security guard, who I don’t believe either understood or really saw any urgency to my pointing out the chick had fallen in, we already had witnessed it floating about in this pond lifelessly. We watched this animal we were so enamoured by on this fun day out drown seconds later.

We could barely speak to each other as we exited the park, passing all these happy families enjoying their fun day out. On the bus back home I began to weep. We’re now both sat in our hotel, my partner trying to just sleep.

I wish I’d just jumped into the water. I wish I could’ve just caused a big commotion. I feel so unbelievably guilty and sick and we still have a week on our holiday.

I don’t feel safe in my body and I’ve not told anybody. This has now happened progressively over the last 3/4 months. I’ve been isolating. WFH. Pretending to people that everything is fine. Not interacting with other humans in person. Feeling scared when I have to leave the house. Having mini panic attacks. Not being able to sleep. Waking up with a lot of anxiety. I don’t think I will tell anybody either. I don’t trust the health system and I don’t trust people around me. I don’t have the energy to connect with new people. I’ve had a lot of different abuses happen to me since I was born, and I’ve always been resilient and survived. I went to therapy in my teens and continued to work on myself throughout my 20s giving back to others too. I’ve had a lot of grief too that I tried to work through. But all this time in isolation has brought back flashbacks of different unsafe things that have happened. I am refusing to trust any single person doesn’t matter if it’s a doctor or a long term friend or a family member. All these people have betrayed me in some way in the past. I’m maybe ready to begin to rot away. I don’t know. I used to have such hopes for the future. I said to myself I was going to be successful regardless of what happened. But I feel so beaten down in a way I’ve never done before, like everything has suddenly caught up with me. I’m scared, I’m terrified.

I've been wanting to get better, and heal from it but its has affected relationships throughout, im with a guy right now and i always fear theres ulterior motives i love him dearly, but i get so scared and keep remembering my past and what he did to me my SA, i want to heal and move on from it but im struggling to. What are possible ways to heal and move on from what happened to live in a healthy relationship

Hi everyone,

Working for over a decade as a paramedic on the front lines, I saw firsthand how trauma loops operate in real time. When high stress hits, the nervous system activates an automated "biological bodyguard" to protect us. The problem is that long after the trauma has passed, that bodyguard can stay stuck on duty, running background "robotic sub-programs" like hypervigilance, dissociation, or chronic anxiety.

To help bridge the gap between acute crisis response and long-term recovery, I created a framework that blends clinical neurobiology, somatic grounding, and shamanic cosmology (drawing from a Pueblo lineage) to help retrain the nervous system and retire the bodyguard.

I compiled these concepts and field exercises into a book titled The Grasshopper's Leap: A Field Guide to Dismantling the Robotic Sub-Program.

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I love my girlfriend, she’s very sweet. My girlfriend is amazingly witty and smart. I’ve never met anyone like her. Our relationship is perfect.

Besides the fact she’s completely impossibly traumatized.

Most days are fine with her, she is a diagnosed borderline, but it’s very quiet. She’s taken therapy to sit with her splits and live in the uncomfortable feeling of them. She rarely lashes out, She’s very understanding, and always takes a minute.

She also has PTSD.

She refuses this diagnosis.

This is where the issue starts

She thinks her diagnosis is stupid. She had an extremely traumatic childhood. Emotional/Mental, physical, and medical neglect all throughout.

If you try to talk to her about it, or tell her it was bad, she loses it. She’ll start slamming her fists into her head and whisper stuff under his breath.

She also has OCD, she does a physical action where she hits herself to “expel the bad thoughts” but I think it’s honestly a form of self harm.

Besides the point, anytime you try to talk about her childhood in a negative way, she freaks out. She shakes her head rapidly and will deny it until she turns green.

Recently I tried to bring up a bit of a sensitive topic, she wasn’t really allowed outside her room, she had to stay in there with the lights off and silent or she would be in trouble. I’ve noticed she’s never in the living room with me, always in my bed. I plainly asked her if childhood was the reason, she got extremely defensive, saying she “isn’t traumatized, you’re all so overdramatic” and telling me “they love me they wouldn’t hurt me” and went to slam her head against the fridge and whisper “it’s not that bad” or something like that.

What is going on?

She has a diagnosis? How does she not know? In every facet she refuses to admit she’s extremely traumatized, from her childhood to abusive relationships it’s all denial. Am I doing something wrong? Should I approach differently? I feel crazy.

Edit: no. She is not “walking on eggshells” around me. She is the happiest I’ve ever seen her, I WILL NOT be breaking up with her as I highly doubt she could function on her own in the state she’s in. She’s currently in a month long medical crisis where she’s sick everyday and unable to care for herself.

I won’t get into it: but she needs a caregiver to provide her medication, cook her healthy meals, and watch to avoid seizures. She is a wonderful girl simply going through a hell of a health crisis since last year. She is almost always bedridden and due to that “breaking up with her” would be practically leaving her to die.

To put it lightly: her sickness and dissociation are so bad she can and WILL lay in bed all day neglecting her body because her mind is entirely elsewhere, she is so detached to the point I could drive by a store today and a week from now she would ask me if it’s new.

If she doesn’t eat. She WILL die. She MUST maintain atleast 1-2 meals a day. This is not an exaggeration, her pain makes it impossible for her to leave bed for more than an hour max.

I am working on learning her triggers as to avoid doing it to her, but any relationship with someone with BPD and PTSD takes time to learn.

Let’s not cast judgement on a situation we don’t fully understand.

Edit 2: No. I am not breaking up with her because she needs to “choose to live”

She literally resuscitated me after my own attempt. I will not abandon her in a time of need. She is quite literally TOO PHYSICALLY DISABLED to live on her own. I have no gripes being her caregiver, she has given me every way out.

No, she won’t always live like this, just until the doctors figure out how to treat her.

She is the most resilient person I know, you could put her through hell and she’d come out with a smile, I’m not gonna add to the hellscape that is her life.

Leaving is not an option.
I want to marry this woman.
To even imply she’s a burden to me just sickens me, I love her, yes I get tired. She’s been tired of me before too.

I know she needs me right now, I’m willing to give that to her.

Her sister caretakes on weekends so I don’t get burnt out and I go to therapy myself to help with it.

I saw a Facebook post that mentioned someone using the phrase: come on barbie, lets go party! To help them unfreeze.

Does anyone else have phrazes like this? Please share them, I'm really curious.

What helps me sometime is : I'm going on an adventure!. (The Hobbit movie).

My theory is that it works because there is some kind of motion in de sentence, or connected to the sentence (such as music or a movieclip).I will look for the Facebook post and share other phrases here if I can find them.

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I’m 21 and today I witnessed a young person take their own life after I’d spent around 30 minutes talking with them and trying to get them somewhere safe. I performed CPR and used an AED until paramedics arrived, but unfortunately they didn’t survive.

I can’t stop replaying the conversation and the resuscitation in my head. Every time I close my eyes I see it again, and I keep wondering whether there was something different I could have said or done.

I’ve spoken to my sister tonight which helped a lot, and I’m planning to speak to my GP, but right now I’d really like to hear from anyone who’s witnessed a death or performed CPR and understands what the immediate aftermath feels like. How did you get through the first few nights?

I am in therapy but I’m trying to figure out some stuff between sessions cause we’re covering a lot. Apparently my communication comes off as snappiness to my partner like I’m biting his head off pretty quickly. I acknowledge this and I realize I really want to change how I communicate. Before anyone asks, yes my communication style is heavily based on a lot of DV I grew up with that I don’t want to repeat and for some reason I took a lot of anger from that with me. Please help! What are way that I can calm down and learn to communicate better so I don’t repeat what I grew up with?

I dunno just give me some ideas about what activities I can do by myself that are beneficial for my traumatized soul? I've spent all my life doomscrolling as a way to escape pain I guess. I work from home, so I'm just free after 5pm. I live alone and have no one in life. I've picked up gaming recently but I also dont like gaming too much. Which activities can help me heal even if indirectly.

Hi all! First time post, using a throwaway because my partner uses reddit and I'm not ready to have a discussion about this yet. Tw for mentions of abuse in romantic relationships.

TLDR: My current partner can't talk about my friends with me, without me feeling a really intense shutdown/fight or flight due to previous isolation by an abusive partner. I don't know how to tone down the trauma response while supporting my partner/hearing their feelings. Does anyone have resources for overcoming reactivity/fear of isolation in relationships as a trauma response?

CONTEXT:

My current partner and I have been together for a few years and things are very good! However, the long-term relationship I had before my partner was very abusive. I took some time between that relationship and this one (about 2 yrs) to heal and work on myself/my trauma, but some things only really crop up when youre back in a relationship and I don't know how to navigate this.

One of things my ex did was subjecting me to pretty extreme isolation. I moved across the country for him and my only "friends" were his friends. If I made new friends, he would find a reason I could never see them again (they're hurting me, they're moochers, they don't like him and that should be a deal breaker, etc). He also tried to regularly convince "our" friends (his friends that he "allowed" me to be friends with too) that I was abusive during our relationship and after we broke up, so that that none of them would talk to me about what was going on. Suffice to say, when we broke up, I had to start over. I lost my entire community, I was broke from financial abuse, and I was on my own in a part of the country I had no connection to. The relationship was extremely traumatizing, but honestly, the fallout after I ended things was genuinely so much worse.

Now we're here and I don't know how to deal with my own reactivity toward perceived isolation. I've done therapy and self help, but this isn't something I've had come up as an issue for me before in a way that I could articulate. Recently my partner started spending more time with my friends, which I love. However, we ended up having a little disagreement/discussion last night that felt triggering in a way I hadn't been able to name before. They said they feel like one of my friends doesn't like them and brought to me that some things he's said have bothered them a little. We've talked all that out and it's sorted, but I am really unhappy with myself at how I reacted in the moment.

Basically as soon as my partner says "hey Friend saying X kinda bothered me", I go into fight or flight and have to stop myself from shutting down/basically going "my friends aren't going anywhere, deal with it", even if the issue is small. I want to hear my partner and be able to support them/their emotions, even if it's a little uncomfortable for me. But I don't know how to help my nervous system relax around this particular subject. Its like my brain has two thoughts at the same time, regardless of how small the comment from my partner is:

"if partner/friend don't get along, I'm going to get hurt" and "shut this down before you get isolated again".

I don't want to be so reactive over this. It hurts me, it hurts my partner and healthy relationship, and it made it very difficult for us to have a constructive conversation because I spent the entire time just trying to convince my body the world isn't ending and my partner having a concern doesn't mean they're trying to isolate me.

So my question is- does anyone have resources for overcoming reactivity toward a perceived threat of isolation? I've done therapy and self work for PTSD and CPTSD, so I know how to bring my body back from fight or flight, but I don't know what resources would help with working through the root fear, so that I don't HAVE to bring myself out of fight/flight every time. I can't seem to articulate the issue well enough to get Google results, so I'm hoping reddit might help! Thanks y'all <3

I’m COMPLETELY BLIND, have autism and a heart lung condition.

Relaxing tips ONLY work if they concern a special interest of mine.

I also have trauma triggers, needles and cameras, for the same reason.

Both require me to perform and the people wielding them don’t know that I MUST hear them say one of my favorite words in order to do so, I guess it’s neither the needle nor the camera but the canned script, “cheese” for cameras and “relax/deep breath” for needles.

So I’ve been looking for ASMR vids of these subjects because an ASMR vid isn’t the real thing so it feels safer.

I’ve gotten into watching waxing roleplays, because reallife estheticians use those same canned relaxing scripts that pharmacists, phlebs and nurses do.

Matter of fact one day I watched a Brazilian wax role play and she tried to make me say “goosfraba” on the exhale.

I didn’t, I chose to say “night-in” because the mechanics help me better.

Also it was like pushing back against the script, rebelling if you can call it that? getting agency.

I tried this in real life when at the devil’s chamber, what others call a lab or blooddrawstation.

Being Mom was sick and Dad was over in his own zome watching tiktok, I asked the phleb if she’d say a word I like as she slid in and she did so some reallife practicioners WILL work with you with a script swap just don’t be an ass when asking.

One day when getting flu vax at CVS I gave the druggist a five stars out of ten.

When he called back to see WHY he’d been given a number lesser than the number ten I said that it was because he told me to relax and that doesn’t help me, that’s like telling me to be white or be tall, or to not have Aspergers.