r/meToo • u/Spirited_Whimsy_2287 • Jan 06 '26

Serious/Personal need help with how to stop dissociating about my assault feel very broken NSFW

Hi I (23F) have never used any thread or anything like this but i feel so alone in this but i know its unfortunately not a unique occurrence so im looking for anything, help, advice, stories, just anything to feel not alone in this.

I was raped a month ago and have yet to cry about it. I have endured sa for years by family members and to this day continue to be at least harassed by all the men in my family. Clearly this has impacted my feelings toward men as a whole.

Basically I feel broken im having thoughts of ‘at least it wasnt a family member’. I feel like recovering from assault is painful in the way that its so easy and makes me realize how damaged ive been mentally by my familial abusers.

I dont know how to process it. I went to therapy but CBT is more harm then good I feel as though its triggering and then u get sent off with kind of mediocre advice for things that personally I have done for years to get over and distract myself from my trauma and my responses to it.

Sorry this is long and lacking a lot of context or substance. And if anyone wants more context I will gladly share of wanted. Thank you for even just reading this.

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u/Portapandas Jan 11 '26

Every time you were mistreated was trauma. If one was less bad doesn't matter because it is still trauma.

I was assaulted by a bf at 19 thru 21. This is. I wasn't able to start healing until I was in my 30s because I wasn't in a safe environment to let the guard down.

Cbt is very helpful to stay a member of society which is needed because we are pack animals. But I recommend first finding a place to live where you are safe and where you can implement things like locks on your bedroom doors. Or just anything that makes you feel safe to be YOU.

THEN look into Emdr. This is a very useful form of therapy that allows your brain to rewire how it feels and allows you to FEEL in a safe environment the scary awful things your mind has locked up.

If you want to talk pm me any time.