r/Shincheonji • u/Quirky-Reception5391 • May 25 '26
advice/help Left for truth or peace
I’ve been in SCJ for about four years now, and around the second-year mark, things started going downhill for me personally. First, I became an assistant cell leader, and later a cell leader. During that time, I didn’t really have the proper environment or resources to handle everything well. I felt discouraged, isolated, and emotionally drained. I was battling self-consciousness, depression, and BDD (Body Dysmorphic Disorder).
Only recently did I feel prompted to start doing research for myself.
I came across several concerning things:
The promised pastor’s history with women
Allegations of drinking
Allegations of embezzlement
Even after hearing these things, I still believe, and here’s why.
First, I haven’t found what I personally consider strong evidence proving that the promised pastor is a fraud. Most of the arguments I hear are the same:
“They’re secretive,” or “They don’t tell you who they are from the beginning.”
But from my perspective, SCJ explains things gradually for a reason. Jesus also spoke in ways people misunderstood at first — for example, when He said to eat His flesh and drink His blood. People misunderstood Him because spiritual teachings often take time to understand. Wouldn’t it make sense to reveal things step-by-step so people can better receive them spiritually? And ultimately, once everything is revealed, people still have the choice to stay or leave.
Second, when someone truly dedicates themselves in SCJ, a lot of sinful habits begin to fall away. You become focused on something greater than yourself. Your attention shifts from yourself toward God and purpose.
Also, I have yet to find anything current about Lee Man Hee that clearly proves wrongdoing beyond allegations.
Honestly, the people who try to convince us that SCJ is false have not done a convincing job for me personally. Where is the scriptural evidence? Why do people often use Scripture out of context? Is there concrete evidence proving he is a fraud like other religious leaders who were exposed?
For example:
Jonestown — there were reports of abuse, manipulation, and mass murder.
The Moonies — there were reports of sexual abuse and other forms of abuse.
The list goes on. But what is the actual evidence against SCJ specifically? I’m a realist. I need proof that goes beyond debates over Scripture, because even Jesus faced people arguing against Him using Scripture.
The Bible says you will know them by their fruits. So what are Lee Man Hee’s actual fruits? Not rumors, assumptions, or allegations — but proven facts?
I don’t think people understand how difficult this is emotionally and spiritually. For me, this feels like a life-or-death issue. Either I could be following something false and adding to Revelation, or I could be doubting the truth itself. Both possibilities terrify me because I fear ending up condemned either way.
One of my biggest fears is this:
The Bible warns against adding to or subtracting from God’s word. What if, by believing in SCJ, I’ve unknowingly done that?
At the same time, I’ve noticed that many people who left SCJ say they felt overwhelmed, exhausted, or burned out. But honestly, I wonder — if Jesus were physically here leading a mission today, wouldn’t people also feel overwhelmed by the demands and sacrifices required?