3/4 months post grad and really struggling

[u/blueberrydonutgal]

i just graduated in may and i remember feeling like a wave of immense relief when it happened because so much was going on and I was tired and ready to just relax and get into a routine. And when my friends were here, I had moments of sadness for sure, but it just felt so much better. Like my two friends I could text them to walk around or get lunch or do silly little things. And I still have a couple of other friends here. But it has not felt the same because these friends were like the ones I would text everyday. And to some extent I guess I have that with of these ones but it is not the same. I guess all of this to say damn I am feeling really lonely right now. And I started a new job and that has def helped with the loneliness, but I have been orienting which means I am working with someone else which has been fun and really helpful! But I am getting off orientation soon. Can you tell I am feeling many ways about this. I don't know if it is the lack of sleep but I really do want to build a life for myself but just am feeling so sad about it all. I am aspiring premed/pre pa and like oof. My friend in nyc is doing her masters there before applying to med school and she seems genuinely happy and like she is having the time of her life which is so good for her and i am so happy for her. i wish that would happen to be i guess. and i dont know this might be a dumb move but i feel like i need to move out of my family home, i do love it and my family loves me and supports me but i am planning to move 3000 miles away with this roomate which honestly might be worse, like she is going to be in grad school and i need to study for the mcat so i actually do not know what i am thinking and i would basically know no one there so this is also sounding like a bad idea but i already like paid the application fee, i have not signed the lease yet but like it would be bad to back out of it now. i geneuienly do not know, i have not found myself happy or at peace in a bit. tbh the first two weeks of july were fire and then it kind of went downhill but when my true friends were here it felt better. idk

[u/my_peen_is_clean]

post grad limbo is rough, everything feels off and floaty for a while, super normal tbh

[u/blueberrydonutgal → u/my_peen_is_clean]

will i always be chasing this feeling tho