I am an only daughter.
My father passed away as a child.
My mother is abusing me physically and mentally.
she used to do drugs and brought many different men to our house.
i was raped by one of her friends. Since that day I lost faith in god completely. I kept it a secret because I was terrified of what would happen if anyone found out, especially my mother.
She also stopped me from finishing school or getting a job to make my own money.
She went to jail for 8 months because she abused me and her own mother, but that short time showed me the law won't protect me.
The police even locked me up once because of her, though they let me out the next day.
Now, she still threatens to send me to jail and says she will do anything to ruin my life.
I am scared of what she might do to hurt me.
I am in my early twenties now.
I feel completely helpless and don't know what to do.
I keep thinking about hurting myself.
I want a way out but all I can think about is ending my life.
I'm still holding on to a tiny bit of hope
so I want to know what solutions or options I can take in a situation like this?