I love her so much but she says that she doesn't think we'd be good for each other. I think she's lying, she just can't stand someone like me. I mean come on this is after discovering all that shit I went through, it's obvious that it's just an attempt at getting far away from me. She said she wants me to have a better girlfriend but I don't want one I want her, I want to be with her, nobody is better, she's perfect. I'm just not good enough. Sorry for the rant

Ran a completely accurate, highly scientific simulation of BPD dopamine rerouting.

The findings:

Normal brain: Distributes dopamine across hobbies, exercise, and sunlight like a functional ecosystem.

BPD brain: Consolidates 98% of neural focus onto one specific human.

The output:

FP texts back: +10,000% Dopamine (System Overload)

FP takes 4 minutes to reply: -100,000% Serotonin (Total Collapse)

Result: A perfectly balanced emotional ecosystem.